Family/Friend Series Part 2 Other Side of Things

(He's the white dude in the middle)

Part two of my mini series of the people this is my brother Nathan Swena my brother/father figure. He's been there for me ever since I could start walking and hasn't left my side ever since. Nate has helped me achieve a broader view on life with his amazing and intriguing ideas on subjects like religion,war, politics, and marriage etc. My bastard of a father was hardly ever around to actually teach me anything on life but Nate practically stepped in to spend time with me when I was a little and got me into video games, anime, computers, and other nerdy obsessions that I love now. 

He was there for me when I was severely depressed and took me out for the night to go hang out with his friends (which he does a lot :) ) and bought me whatever I wanted to make me happy. I love this man to death and so happy to see that he has found a beautiful woman to marry this September which I can't wait to be there to watch them be wed. 

I hope in the future I can become as amazing as he is to everyone being so warm hearted and loving with a strong philosophy on life that will inspire me to achieve more I doubt you will ever see this Nathan but know I'll always love you and be there for you in any way possible for you, future wife and the children you plan on having in the future.

Family/Friend Series Part 1 Santeria

My first friend to mention who first came to my mind today was Brittany Dutton from Maine.

She is one of my special cases for a friend with the fact that we live on complete opposite sides of the country! People ask me how the hell I know people from Maine and how can I be close friends with some over the internet?? That's a story for a different time. I "met" her through one of my other Mainer friends Livi, I started talking to her and it always made me smile to talk to Britt because her silly responses make my day and was there for me when I was sometimes at my worst (mostly this week and thanks for staying up with me to make sure I was doing okay) and best which of course I would do the same for her in a heart beat. 

I really can't wait to get working towards coming to visit all you and all my other amazing friends there and were gonna have so many adventures like burning stuff in shopping carts and push them around! Your so amazing in every way I know you had a really hard life growing up from what you told me but your already so strong as an individual for getting to where you are now in life who deserves everything good for being the kind and sweet person you are. Know that I will always be there for you and that I don't plan on disappearing from your life anytime soon can't wait to see you!

Despicable Me

Went and saw one of my new favorites by far today with my awesome friend Sarah! Despicable Me, I loved every second of it I was laughing my ass off about most of the time and ended up with my sides hurting horribly. I remember asking some of my friends to go see that earlier but they think cause now were teenagers we don't like anything "childish" pfft what losers I'm the oldest out of my friends and really the only who would admit how much I love all the little kid movies! Honestly no one can ever be too old to watch and enjoy a movie that's "only" meant for kids. Any who this week has been just been amazing for far even though I do miss my mom and hope she's having a blast in California :) I already got all planned out for this tomorrow I'm gonna go party it up with Sarah, Wednesday and Thursday. Then Friday I'm gonna go see Inception with Jerica which is gonna be fantastic because I haven't seen her all summer!! By the way starting tomorrow I'll make my first post to my mini series of friends who had made an impact on my life :) .

Only A Matter of Time

(John Myung From Dream Theater)

I have so much think for today my friend (who shall not be named) has been having horrible problems lately mostly family and girl problems which to an extend makes him wanna start doing stupid shit again mostly drugs/drinking thinking it will help him get through it but will just get him back to were he started, miserable as hell. I really don't know what to do at this point I feel like I fail as a friend to get him to stop doing harm to himself he's like a brother to me and I trust him with everything. I wish life was just back to how it was when we were little kids when we had problems would just simply just sit down and play N64, but doubt this will ever be like this I feel like talking to his mom who is my second mom pretty much, about his problems even though It would look like I'm stabbing him in the back but I don't see any of my other friends trying to stop him from it. I really wanna be there for all my friends who I care about just as much as I do for my family but I always feel like I'm not doing anything for the better.If anyone here has a tip or idea for me please do tell because I'm so lost on what to do for this kid.

Let Go of My World!! (that means you dad)

(Testament [80's Bay Area Thrash Metal FTW! \m/])

Well I had an amazing weekend got to see some of my UCAS friends I've haven't seen in forever!! Went and saw the Sorcerer's Apprentice with Nick and some friends (pretty good btw), watched the second season of Pysch, and ate way too many fatty food's. Ah a nice end to a awesome weekend excluding that my dad kept calling me, but I can't wait for the week that it'll just be me at the house with my mom being gone for the week in California. I just love having the house to myself I can have my music as loud as I want and I feel like I'm in my own little sanctuary of no annoying people saying "TURN DOWN THAT CRAP!!" its gonna be nice, but I think I might go somewhere for the week seeing that my dumb ass of a dad will try to get me to stay with him in SLC with the whore so no es bueno. I'm thinking of running away to Mexico till my mom gets back whichever helps me get through the week with that crazy bastard calling me all the time using random numbers so I won't know if its him or not >.<. Any who I'm now going to bed just a heads for the very very very very very very very very few people who actually read this blog at all I plan on making a little series of blogs of all my friends/family mostly the ones that have affected my life for the better and plus this will hopefully get more people to actually check out my blog so check it out you might just be one of them :).

Brush the Dust Away

(Anders Fridén [In Flames])

Another day another blog, chilling with Nick for now till we go to Affy's and go see some of my awesome UCAS friends :). Its gonna be a kick ass day already I can feel it in my taco filled veins!! My mom is gone for the weekend so Chelsey and I got the whole house to ourselves with nothing but awesome fatty processed foods to eat. I can already feel my arteries clogging with deliciousness as we speak :). Then the week after my mom is going to California for the whole week so then I got the house to myself again HELL YEA BRING THE HOOKERS AND KEGGERS jk ;). I think its all the sugar talking but I feel so happy like nothing can ruin my day I dare you to try! Hope you all have a kick ass weekend for now I'm gonna go party peace!!!

Born Again Anarchist

(ANDREAS KISSER FROM SEPULTURA!!!)

This is going to be a sweet weekend Friday: Affy comes home from Jackson and I see to some of my kickass ucas friends I haven't seen in forever who they get to meet my best friend Nick!!! Saturday: Go Party with Nick and Kaniho!!! This is gonna be one sweet weekend I'm so excited! Any who just a little update here because I promised Nina (who I miss a lot!!) to do some more blogging while she's away at camp. I been happier lately so much happier than I was months ago, I been going out and hanging out with friends more than usual. I feel like all my problems are slowly fading away into oblivion leaving me to actually enjoy my life, I wanna go into the canyons, I wanna go party and I actually want to go on hikes despite the fact I have horrible flat feet!! I been starting to love myself for who I am, not be scared to talk some cute girls either ;), and I'm now starting to not give a damn on what certain think how I live my life or my style in culture . I'm gonna live it up as long as possible till I have to crunch down and do homework for my future career and life till then its fun from here on out!!!

Brutality is My Sanctuary

Third post here everyone in their right mind knows how much of a metal-head I am. Metal is everything, really I can't go a day not listening to it since 4th grade starting with SOAD (System of A Down). I started my music life with mostly cute little kid music but as I got older I always hear my mom listening to some of the old 80's pop/rock bands like Oingo Boingo. My dad would listen to mostly Bob Marley, Nirvana and even that annoying latino music that would make me wanna bash my skull in, for one I never understood them (don't know spanish sue me) and THEY ALL SOUND THE SAME!!!! My brother Nate would listen to from what I could remember was 311, Bob Marley, Smashing Pumpkins, Marilyn Manson, Rob Zombie, and old school rap. My sister's Amber and Chelsey I have no idea what they listened to when I was a kid.....I like to think our family all have different taste which is good because I like think variety of different cultural taste is good in a family. Me I started to get into heavier and heavier music as I got older from SOAD to something crazy as Brain Drill. I don't give a damn about others bad opinion on the genre yes I know everyone is different but hey I doubt your music is any better since its not Metal (concerts are better too), don't even call me close minded either I've had check out other genres of music I like to have a open mind but none of them come close to what I listen to. I still listen to some of the Metal that's new now even there's way too many CORE'S!! I dig the 80's and 90's Metal much more than the 00's. I still have yet to see the Metallica of my generation doubt that's coming around anytime soon but till then I'll still be rocking out to the good stuff! :)

“Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.”

(<--Max Cavelara "The Bob Marley of Metal" from Brazilain thrash metal bands Sepultura, Cavelara Conspiracy, Soulfly and Nailbomb) Second post here I been having too much on my mind lately about things with certain every day habits I do which bring memories good and bad mostly about my father (bastard). Even though I still hate him to this day I have some actual good memories from him mostly music and other cultural subjects. Sometimes I can't really even listen to Bob Marley, Nirvana, Offspring, UB40, Sepultura, or any other bands without somehow thinking about him even though he probably stole those some of those cd's from my older sister sadly. I love my mom to death she raised me on her own and done so much for me and my other siblings but were total opposites and my dad was the one who I could talk about music and other things I love but for now I don't want to have any association with that son of a bitch till he leaves that ugly ass somoan whore but still be there to help support my other little sister who I still haven't even met yet. I guess I could thank my dad for one thing as well what NOT to do when your in a relationship that's for sure it's his loss from picking that whore over my mom who is 10x better and prettier by far ugh I don't wanna know how much photshopping that whore has to use for her facebook I don't wanna even meet her in person ughh it gives me chills just thinking about it!

Religon (My First Post)

Religion, probably one of the most interesting and most conflicting conversations anyone could have. I was thinking about religion a lot today especially because today is the 4th of July but I saw people actually celebrate it yesterday since today is a Sunday. Some of my friends know it already but I don't believe in any deities of any sort and you could say I'm Atheist or Agnostic but right now I'm conflicting with myself about which one that I am. I was raised LDS and baptized into the LDS Church but I never really had much interest at the time most likely because I was just a little kid having to go every Sunday with my grandparents. I never really felt the "Holy Ghost" within me and never will. I see too much damage caused by religion that even the benefits of it won't make up for, people isolated others and gone as far as killing one other just because of their religious differences. But yes it does have benefits like It is able to bring comfort to those without answers by giving them some, it gives a basic list of things that are generally considered good and bad which help teaches the follower, and it can help a person's mind by giving them one more point of view. So in some cases some people do want religion in their lives for the better and some don't see any need for it like me. The closest thing to god like figure metaphorically is my own mother she is better to me than any other "GOD" out there she's the one that brought me into this world, gave me knowledge on what is wrong and what is right in this world she out does any "GOD" out there. Hope you guys like my first post I plan on posting more even if no one reads them I just like to spread my word about the things that go on in everyone's lives.